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Name: Kyle
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Hershey
Birthday: 3/17/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: God, church, music, video games, shopping and sleeping
Expertise: Being LAZY
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  MiStErLiMe
Member Since:
1/31/2006
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| So here is the thing.... I am usually quiet about the things that go on in my head, but today I just can't help but spout off about something. Suicide threats are empty. The kids that actually do it are the kids that no one knows is going to do it. The threat is just them trying to get attention. I have a very short fuse for suicide. I think if someone is honestly going to do it do it. I am really happy that my friend didn't, but how many times can I listen to the same bull shit? I mean honestly this isn't the first time he has threatened to kill himself and it surely won't be the last. People who have been given life should value it to the fullest. God has a plan for everyone and ending your life is just a waste of God's plan. That is like slapping him in the face and saying I don't trust you.
On other notes... Today is 13 days til I leave... I am starting to get really nervous. I am excited though. I want to leave more than anything. And then at the same time, I feel like I am leaving so much behind. I am going to miss all of you who used to read this. And others who never have. I have pushed a lot of you away in the last few months. I don't want to be clinging to anything. I want nothing to come back to so I don't feel bad when I don't. I don't know where I am going at the end of my A-school but I know that it certainly won't be back here. I am ready to move on to something new. PA you have been great. I will miss you, but I am off to do the better things. I hope. edit: I will miss you all and I am not abandoning you. I will come visit. This just isn't the place where I am going to end up. Best of luck in all you do you all have my number and if you don't ask. 13 days guys... 13 days.
Well I most likely won't write in this again, but I thought it would be worth writing my thoughts down in before I leave. It really does help me get the things of my head out. Until next time...
There's a burning in my heart everyday
I come to You, I look to You and say
When will I become everything
That You've intended me to be
I'm beating at my chest everyday
I run to You, I come to You and say
When will I become everything
That You've intended me to be
I am so tired
I am so beaten
From walking down the road of shattered dreams
I am so lonely
I am so broken
Won't you come, won't you rescue me?
I am so tired, I am so tired, I am so tired, I am so tired
[I'll be the light inside of you and won't let go of you]
Come rescue me, won't you come, won't you come
I'm calling out your name
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| So I am always drawn back to Xanga. I guess I just liked it better.... And concidering no one reads it anymore it doesn't matter what is written...
So my last day of school was Thursday.... I failed my Physics final which means I have to take it this summer. That sucks, but luckily I still get to graduate, just not walk. Which disappoints my parents and all that. I feel bad, but I mean this wasn't for them. It was for me... I feel like I have let them down, but then again, i am like the graduation wasn't for you it was for me.
This summer should still kick ass.... I mean I am going to have to work around summer school and all that jazz but it should still work out nicely...
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| What shit did I get myself in now? | | |
| I think I am pretty much done with this... peace out guys... | | |
| my parents told me that they want me to leave after I graduadate. I dont care. Fuck them and fuck the mask that cares that you were offended that I said fuck. | | |
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